Today Joy and I got the tree up and decorated. It fits well with both the house and where we are in our lives. I also had my first day back at Weight Watchers. When you're re-joining yet AGAIN and the person knows you by name walking up to the counter it probably doesn't speak well about your staying power. But, of course, I just KNOW it's going to be different this time. Got mom to go with me. I can't help feeling bad about pressuring her about this kind of thing when she's in such a difficult place but I can see her deteriorating and I'm terrified of what will happen if she continues like this. I don't know if she's in denial or just figures she's too far gone. In any event, I can do what I can to keep it from happening to me and try to inspire and support her in doing better. I'm very tempted to go back to facebook because I want to share some of the little moments that have been happening but I need to remind myself that that isn't really connecting with people. Even if it is in some sense I have let is substitute more meaningful contact way too much.
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